My Last Words to You

Nika Nguyen

Nika Nguyen

This work was an entry into San Jose Public Library's Fall Into Fiction 2022: Staff Contest.

Do you remember that day?
The day where we were sitting together, side by side, at our favorite spot. I couldn't read your mind at the time, but all of our memories were pouring through my own while we sat there in silence. I never would have imagined life this way, especially without you being next to me as I continue to grow. We would always talk about our future with one another, especially when we were with each other for years. Remember the talks about wanting to get married, about how many kids we were going to have, what their names would be, and just so much more to the
point where I would look forward to life.
At first, our love was strong, spending every moment together. We were inseparable. Everyone around us knew that if one of us was around, the other person would be nearby. But as years progressed, I blossomed into a flower while you slowly flew away from me, like a bee moving
from daisy to daisy.
You helped me grow. I grew stronger because of you. I remember the sadness that I was once in, and I still feel the same feeling every single day, even when I may seem like someone who has it all together in front of everyone else. Always having a smile on my face, and being my cheerful self. When in fact, no one really knew what I had gone through these past few years.
I continue to look back on life, where there were moments of me crying to myself night after night. The thing was, after realizing what I've gone through and what I've accomplished and
achieved, one final thing I want to say to you is...thank you.
I believe what we went through was a way to help open my eyes with how I view life, and it helps push me, so I can spread my wings in order to show everyone the true beauty inside of me. As much as it pained me to separate myself from you, I don't think I would be as strong as I
am now, if I had held on to something that was slowly slipping away from my fingertips.
Even though you hurt me in the past, you've brought me happiness over the years when I needed it most. Thank you for making me who I am today. I would not have met the wonderful
individuals that I have met so far, and will also look forward to meeting more in the future. I've brought so much joy and happiness to so many people, and there's just so much more out there in the world that I have yet to discover. As time continues to move forward, there is still a lot for me to learn, and I'm continuing to improve on myself as I go along this journey of mine. I can't help but to look back at all the memories that I have, from all the loving ones to all the painful
ones.
This isn't a heartbreaking story. No.
But rather more of what I'd like to say if given the opportunity and a way to share my voice to everyone in the world. Since that fateful day that we sat next to each other, after building up my courage to let you go, I will always remember how it changed me to become a better version of
myself.
So thank you...thank you for everything you've done for me, for helping me open my eyes, and for being able to gain the experience of going through all these different types of emotions. You
know I'll always appreciate you, just like how I appreciate everyone in their own ways, since every single soul that I came across so far in my journey, will forever have a spot, not only in my mind, but in my heart as well, and that includes yours. People will tell me that I should be mad, angry and just forget about you. But with all of these memories, it's almost impossible to do so.
However, what they didn't realize was that I did let you go, and I am so proud of myself for doing
so. I feel much more at peace and always look forward to the new adventures waiting for me.
With that...
Thank you.

This work was an entry to the San Jose Public Library's Fall into Fiction 2022 short story contest.
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